ANU DAW?!

Posted: Wednesday, July 13, 2011 by RoNRoNTuRoN in
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i dont know where to start or where to end... hoping something, some entity fills the pathstones so i can clearly see where to step... or where i'll tumble down maybe... i have been hoping to see some daybreak, some light, a blue sky full of hope... something worth watching... something beautiful. But in the end, i failed myself again. All i see is darkness in the end... who's to blame but me.

Hayyyy,,,, buhay nga naman... I couldn't agree more. there were times that all i show is a happy me, a joyful me, the clown in me... but then, i realized, I'm more than an ordinary clown... im a weeping clown... desperate,miserable clown with puffy rainbow colored pompom hair, balloons on the right and a magic bunny on the other. After the party, time to wipe the face, time to reveal emptyness, time to unmask the once happy clown.

Enough of the clown stuffs. Enough of the whatever... Enough of this....

People who don't know me misjudge me. They are wrong. I am the one judging them... and I have sorted you well... People who know the details of my matrix-like life appreciate the real Ron. they value every single piece of me that was broken years ago because of my tired, clumsy hands. Trying to fit every piece and bring me back together, they have failed.... and so will the others who will try, because the last piece to complete the jigsaw was lost long ago... and only that person.... that person who took it away can only bring me back.

Sorry people for every unanswered questions i have failed to clear. Forgive me and my tangenialities. This flight of ideas bothers me as it bothers you right now.... Hayyy... ikaw kasi eh, kung sino ka man...

If I am meant to be miserable, desperate for the rest of my life,,,, it wouldnt matter... it has and it will happen for a reason....

To the three people, thanks for your anvil, stirrups and hammer... i know its connected to the deepest part of you. please treasure every memoirs... Oist, hindi ako lasing. Hang over pa din to. haha

i thought im ready to make a difference, but indifference surfaced. I thought it will be something beautiful... i guess everyone's just another pretty face in the crowd that will come and quickly go... May you be blessed. May we all be blessed.

anu daw?


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Something I was able to scavenge from my multiply account. Entry dated Jul 17, '08 4:20 AM

11 comments:

  1. Nate says:
    July 13, 2011 at 3:51 PM

    ah... kala ko nmn kung ano..

  1. Viewfinder says:
    July 13, 2011 at 6:16 PM

    kalurkey ka friend.. pero why the re-post? ehehehe

  1. NOX says:
    July 13, 2011 at 7:46 PM

    kinabahan ako bigla. akala ko ako yung pretty face, ahhahahahahahaha!

    bwahahahahaha!

    love you, daddy. hope this is all behind you now :)

  1. Wilberchie says:
    July 13, 2011 at 8:09 PM

    keri lang yan KuyaRonRon! I love that your Tangent!!! Para may touch ka naman ng Math! whahahah!!! chos!

  1. Leo says:
    July 13, 2011 at 8:45 PM

    i'm dumb. i didn't get it. hahaha. anyways, let's all be blessed, i get that's what's important.


    peace. :)

  1. Nate says:
    July 13, 2011 at 10:00 PM

    @nox: ahahah! bakit, in denial ka ba na pretty ka? lol! :P

    @leo: sshh.. ako rin, di ko na-gets.. kunwari lang may mai-comment.. ewan ko ba dito kay ronron.. :P --- "i'm dumb. i didn't get it. hahaha. "

    @ronron: jowk! :P oy ano neh? ung part 2?? :P

  1. RoNRoNTuRoN says:
    July 14, 2011 at 9:42 AM

    @nate akala ko din kung ano to. ahahaha.

    @clarence, ewan ko dn bat ko to nirepost. natuwa lang ako nung nahalukay ko cya sa baul and realized na noon pa man eh emo emohan na ako. lolx. :D

    @dad, i love u tooo so much! naman, alamoyan! di ko na nga tanda bakit ko to sinulat non eh, d ko na maalala kung bat ako emo nun. :D

    @wilber, hay nako, I hate Trigo.Porket ba ang galing mo sa math chenelarp! pero the Tangenial here is not the math thingy. Tangeniality is also a psychiatric chorva, thus the title of my blog since im a psychiatric nurse. :D

    @Leo, ako man, naguluhan sa post na to. parang tanga ayt?!

    @Wilber ulet, nakooo, ma MMTRCB ako pag pinost ko pa yun Chapter 2. hahahaha.

  1. Rico De Buco says:
    July 14, 2011 at 10:19 AM

    we encounter some obstacles and some point but im sure there are many things to push through.. first time here.

  1. RoNRoNTuRoN says:
    July 14, 2011 at 10:42 AM

    Rico!!!! hellow. :D salamat!

  1. Wilberchie says:
    July 15, 2011 at 6:37 AM

    ay sori naman! wahhahhaaahahah!!! pang ibang field pala yung jargon na yun! whahaha!

  1. RonRonTuRoN says:
    July 16, 2011 at 2:43 AM

    @wilber, no prob, they both work on the same principle of touching at a single point, yours are lines and circles, ours are thoughts and speech

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