WHY DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH A STRANGER?
Posted: Thursday, December 1, 2011 by RoNRoNTuRoN in
Humans are
by nature insatiable. The thirst for a higher stand is innate in our genes. We
tend to strive for more than what we currently have. We want a step higher than
what we once thought was the highest. Material or immaterial it may be, others
say that there is something greater to look forward to, or to at least to replace
the current with.
However, at
this point in my life, I find inner peace. I find the solemnity of contentment
I so longed for in the past 26 years.
Never have
I learned to let go of my past this way. Neither did I feel much joy that can
never be replaced with any material richness the world has to offer. My quest
for my present has been rocky and wiggly, but I can now say that the quest was
worth it. The long path of stumbles, defeat, emotional instability and
heart-tormenting brouhahas that once seemed endless has finally ended. And here
I am, breathing the fresh air of tomorrow below the blue sky that seemed
surreal yesterday.
I had no
regrets on my past mistakes. I realized that what we think as wrong at the
moment may just be something greater in disguise – like a flock of angels in
their layman’s clothes. These mistakes once brought me down to my knees. To
their disappointment, I managed to stand.
The series
of the unfortunate events in my life fortunately gave me someone I was waiting
for in my life. I’ve waited six months to meet him in person. Those months,
days and nights of infinite waiting were not easy. There were moments I thought
I was losing my mind, realizing that there is still a chance of this being a
dream, or maybe a reality that would soon wake me up and will make me dream
again once more. I endured all those days. The emotional torment was the
hardest of all. I risked everything for this special person that offered me his
hand when my face was still on the ground.
Different
thoughts ran into my cortex while I was trimming the days. How is this even
possible? Will he hurt me the same way my past relationships did? Is he really
true to his words that he is willing to wait? And what kind of fool am I hoping
that out of a million bloggers out there, one person, this one person, gambled
his heart and fell in love with a person he has not seen before? Someone who’s a thousand miles away from his arms.
At first, I
thought it was impossible. But as days progressed, I soon found my comfort in
him. I saw some light in the dark. Suddenly, all the pieces of me were falling
into the right place. He gave me hope after all my hope was nearly gone. The
months turned into weeks and days. And days turned to hours. And hours turned
to minutes.
That moment
I came as a surprise in his office was magical. It was priceless. He had no
idea that I’d be showing up during his afternoon break. My world stopped when I
saw how he blushed as our eyes met. Those chinito eyes… in front of me. Every
raindrop that touched my integument was perfect. That rainy afternoon was a
shower of love as if the heavens rejoiced for the two of us. Then the days and
nights we spent together after that are all history.
I tried to
answer the question his friends and mine bombarded me all the time. Why him?
How’d I know it’s him? I always tried to find the perfect answer, but I can’t.
Then I asked myself, bakit nga ba siya?
Ever since
I met this guy, I longed for nothing but him. I asked nothing but his joy and
happiness. It was a divine selflessness. Everyone has their own purpose, and he
made me discover that part of my mission in this life is loving him and making him happy. As stereotypical
as it may sound, I can truly say that I could not ask for more. I am not an
adolescent anymore or a pubescent boy experimenting on the world. I have my
sets of past experiences which created my ultimate set of principles in my
life. I’m done with playing. I’m done with the trial-and-error period. I see
the world in a different paradigm now. And I see my world in him. That
contentment, an inner feeling of peace that only I can understand and feel
would answer my question on why I fell in love with a stranger. 
November
23, 2011. Boracay. I was ready for him. I offered him my pledge of forever, and
asked him for his pledge. Thank you dad for saying yes. Yes, I really want to
marry you. We sat and kissed together on the beach, savoring the perfect
scenery of the serene sunset. We both laid on the sand and watched the stars
above. A shooting star so bright crossed the night sky. We made our wishes
privately. Mine was for us, for forever.
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