How 'Bout a Round of Applause?!
Posted: Tuesday, June 28, 2011 by RoNRoNTuRoN inhaha. it really feels weird being involved in a thing that you don't even know exist in the first place... I really had no idea, seriously... And it feels much weirder to be the balancing fulcrum between two attracted forces. Even at times, I still ask myself after this recent incident: Was I the one who ruined it all or was it me who opened the other's eye to the wickedness of the other end?
If it wasn't for my early witty deductions, the truth will never be revealed and we'll all be living in our own web of lies, lust and deceit. I am grateful for that, especially that Iam able to save a friendship out of the complex chemistry of love and lust. There's this unusual feeling of sadness in me... pitting me deeper in this abyss of loneliness and aloneness.... why did life involve me in such a difficult situation where failure is the only prize i can get for winning the 1st place?
Sad but true, life has its way of complicating uncomplicated things... making you fall in love, serving complexities and sprinkling an array of semi-feasible solutions.
I hate myself. I feel betrayed. I feel played. I am filthy. Let me clean myself and start all over again.
Everything happens for a reason....... puhlease...
Disclaimer: This is a post i wrote back in 2008 and found in my multiply emblem. No part of this story / article is ever true at this time and i heartfully regret being involved in this shit. Thank you.
wow..what were you up to that time? :) hi! new follower!